Do What You Love...

I've been pondering the titles of two books. I've not actually read the books, you understand, but the titles certainly speak to me. The first is: "Feel the fear, and do it anyway." The other is: "Do what you love, and the money will follow."

The second one is what speaks to me now. I've spent the last four months working out of town and only going home for a day and a half on the weekends. I'm burned out. I want to be home with my husband and my dogs. I'm tired of living in a hotel room and eating out. And when I think about what I want to do with my life, what I want to do for a living, I realize that being a pharmacy tech is not it.

I've been a pharmacy tech for almost ten years. And to tell you the honest-to-God truth, I don't care if I ever fill another prescription in my life. Pharmacy work does not excite me anymore, if it ever really did. I need something new.

I read some advice from a writer to a person who wanted to be a writer, and the gist of the advice was this: If, when you wake up in the morning, the first thing on your mind is writing, then you're a writer. If it isn't, then discover what it is you desire and that's what you are. Believe me, I do NOT wake up in the morning thinking about pharmacy, unless its to dread going in to work. I either wake up thinking about quilting or about animals.

I've thought about whether I could make my living quilting. But...for me quilting is more ministry than money. I don't know if I'd still love it if I HAD to do it.

I've been putting in lots of applications closer to home, mostly in the pharmacy field. None has panned out. But today I had an interview at an animal hospital. Oh my gosh! I haven't felt this excited about the prospect of working somewhere in a very long time. I WANT THAT JOB!!! This job could be the first step in becoming a veterinary technician. It would involve office work, sure, but also working with the animals, assisting in surgery, learning SOOOOO much. The interview made me realize just how much I want to do something else besides pharmacy work.

Yes, quilting is a great ministry, and I love to do it. But as a profession, I would love the opportunity to work with animals. Anybody who knows me knows that I'm a big wuss when it comes to animals, and I deeply desire to have a chance to help them on a regular basis.

So, that's the deal. Do what you love and the money will follow. I pray that's true, and I also pray that I get this job. Please, pray with me? Thanks!